I take my own.
My own life and thoughts.
For now I yearn to die.
To be buried forever.
There i cannot suffer.
There i feel no pain.
For i am dead.
As i am now.
For i cannot survive without me.
My mind is struggling to continue.
To power my heart.
I will not live.
I will not die.
I will suffer forever.
In my own virgin death.

You walked into my life by chance.
 We weren't planned.
 We weren't thought of.
 But something drew us together.
 You werent' here a long while.
 But something make's me yearn for your presence.
 Now that your gone I find myself.
 I Find myself waiting and hoping for one more night at your side.
 One more hour of your presence would be a blessing.
 One more kiss from your sweet lips would make me tremble.
 So until the next time we meet.
 I just want you to know I miss you.

you know what you mean to me?
absolutlely nothing
i bet i know what i mean to you
absolutly nothing
but in the mess of nothingness
one of us will fall
and in the fall that person will get hurt bad
when people fall most of the time they bruise or scrape their knees
but this time the person will fall a little harder, and when they do,

they'll shatter their knees
and yet the next time they fall they will shatter their heart, because

everytime you fall you fall a  little harder,
but over time you can become used to this faltering pace
and if you do you will only get stronger everytime you fall
as time goes on and you keep falling, you will soon become so ammuned to

this that you will feel no pain, or compunction
but if you happened to be weak you might never get used to the cuts and

scrapes
and my only advice left for you is this; the higher you are, the harder

you fall
and the harder you fall is all the more pain you will endure

How can one learn to love life when everything in life is lonely and miserable? As misery and pain converge from every corner of every building on every street your mind begins to decay.

Within the buildings and corners there are an immense number of problems, and from there on the problems only become larger and more complex,

so you become more involved in the morass of the tangled web your own failing mind and soul began to weave. Some time passes and you find yourself all alone again, and you finally say " I will decapitate these problems as they have decapitated my mind and heart.

You find that your optomism and good faith got you no where in solving your problems, so you just submerge the pain and go on as you once were, only this time the pain is more severe and brutal

You hopped that all the problems would just levitate or evanesce , but  the only thing that disappeared was the little hope you had left in your cold, pale, lifeless body.

the days keep passing by and everything you thought you knew becomes as unfamiliar as a stranger in a far off land you have never seen before.

so you are getting sucked into the corners of all these strange buildings . the force that desolates you and puts you back together is unruly and mean, and that force is in your own hands,

it takes you a while to realize that it was all your fault, and that the light has been shining the whole time,  you've kept your eyes shut for so long that you refused to see the light, it wasn't the light that refused to shine

you must open your eyes and see the light, because if you shut them for too long the light will eventually go out, and you will be left all alone in the dark with no way out and the walls and corners closing in on you

one day i'll get over you,
one day i'll be gone
one day i'll forget you,
one day i'll move on

because the truth is you never loved me
you never once were real
yet, i couldn't explain the way you hugged me,
and how you made me feel

i must admit i fell for you,
you really had me good
but one day you will feel it too
just as though you should

soon you will remember me,
because i gave you all my love
despite all the changes i made for you,
i was never good enough

but the tables will some day turn,
and you'll be all alone
so i guess i'll just let it burn
because baby i've moved on

yesterday's feelings are today's regrets
today's regrets are tomorrow's pain
and tomorrow's pain you will never forget
when no one is around, you are left to blame

you go on through your melancoly life
you have nothing left to live for
dealing with pain and strife
your emotions are shreded up and tore

you were once strong
but now you are passive
as he's moved along
this scene is so f*cking tragic

no use in sitting around and crying
cause he doesn't give a f*ck that inside your dying

Days go by as quickly as the cars and people pass
It is really sad to know that I love nothing in life
Is it really as brutal and apathetic as it seems?
Am I that lonely and cold?

I really don't know
Everytime I think about my place in life I become more confused
I see no meaning to anything life
Yet I don't know why I keep living,

But I guess I live cause I have nothing to die for
There is a huge void in my life
But I can't sense where it starts or ends,
And if you can't find the source of the problem you can never solve it

I wish I had answers to the questions
But they seem to never go away
Some where down the line I lost everything
I lost everything I believe in, know, hope, love, sympathy, trust

My life took a different road,
Now I am on a one way street.
And If my life doesn't make a turn soon,
I will surely end up at a dead end

so how the f*ck does this site work?