So this is life in all its glory
Dont bullshi*t me with your happy story
Life is f*cked and were all trying to survive
Pain and hate found a home to thrive

In this light that was ment for hell
My heart backed up beggins to swell
Life is made up it just can't be real
Take me someplace that eye can feel

Angels of a shame filled world
find me in the corner curled
Forever eye shall rot in this dream called life
standing on the edge of this knife
This hate and pain

Eye miss the happy days eye bled for you
throw it up, take it back and chew
This is what eye am
a sea of lies eye swam

Roses wilted at the foot of my bed
they are black now what used to be red
Left there by someone who once cared
whos pain and problems once shared

Eye once agian go to the place inside my head....

 

 

 

Looking over everyone eye am your breath saying goodbye found signs of passion leading wants from pleasure and hoping eye'l still find needles stuck to remind true addiction keeps the mind inside the cutter.

 

 

My freak
caged
in the back of my mind
surrounded in a haze of hate
screaming a whisper into my brain
telling my me eye'm insane
reassuring me eye'm still dead
as eye lay rotting in bed.

 

 

And then slowly my body turns to ash, with a settle breath eye'm blown away taking back all my thoughts, leaving the light and filling with nothing a calm murder sets the mood a lifeless body walks outside the light teasing me with promises of death.

 

 

Taste my pain and eye'l poisin your soul, a disturbed desire to leave my flesh.
Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind a place the light can't find once shined but now eye'm blind and eye let you back in to do it all again. walking in the dark seeing without sight living without reason.

 

 

A razor fixes all my problems
cut deep into my flesh and realise my pain
enjoy this vacation from reality
come back
the light is blurred and the floors like to fall on me
the thoughts of her are a poisin in my mind
the burning cuts and the warm comfort of blood on my skin
hate fills me, a hate for her
a web of lies, truth, the one with the gun
sinking into the dark depression, Eye Love It
my pain, Eye feed off it
Eye cling to it as if it were the very core of my being
without pain, without her eye would be blind
Eye see the world now
how dark a place it is and eye know now what must be done
the blood must touch ground, spill it and cleanse the light
murder never seem so polite
a change in me, the flow of hate slows
as my heart stops
a smile that has not been spreads across my face
as the last tear rolls off
calm, warm, happy....... bliss
my happy ending.

 

 

Eye'v lost my head again, going over every word you have ever said, why can eye remember the bad before the good.
Carved into my skin, the number is ten, trying to forget that eye can never forget, eye have not a reason to wake up from here.
Screams into the night fall to the floor, a flower growing in a pile of shi*t eye call my life, a beautiful blood red rose.
Dripping with desire eye make for my darkness door, let me down gently and go wonder off, eye leave these bloody wounds, tender and soft.
Drowning myself with memories long past, the only way left eye see to be free, black and white, twelve shades of grey.
Drawing myself with color at last.