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My Blog: Reflection Of Self
By: Ace_Skates_LVS


Something interesting happened at work today.  As I was conversing with a fellow associate about what they should do in their current situation (in relevance to relationships and some small financial matters) they stopped me...


  That person asked me why are you so good at helping others and you know everything to say at the right moment but everytime I see you it seems that you're troubled or disturbed mentally or in deep thought or either just downright depressed and if anything just apathetic most of the time if you don't have those headphones in your head?  It seems like nothing just will ever go your way no matter how faithful you are to someone or how honest you are and how respectful you are...how do you maintain that type of composure even though everything just falls down everyday on you?

  At first I didn't really know what to say.  As the person elaborated on and on I decided to elaborate just a tad bit on basically how to cope but not to much because that wouldn't be me.  I elaborated just enough to show a scratch of the surface of my situation.

  This person stopped me again when I was just about through with explaining and told me something else.  This person told me that no matter how self-sufficient I am and how much I sit and ponder alone then solve my issues myself there is going to be that day when I just breakdown and everything comes out...and who's there to hear you out is completely depending on the actions I make now.  I hear that a lot so I wasn't phased but as I reflect upon my past a bit I think to myself....


  I have to end this now.  I am still a bit perplexed due to some other abstract thoughts and new matters thrown at me to dwell in thought over my hours of "Sleep" so I guess I'll finish this another time.  Peace kids.

Published On: 10/27/2008
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My Blog: Repetitive Nostalgia.
By: Ace_Skates_LVS


It was unknown untill it gradually presented it's self as a pre-conceived notion of happiness and a source of solace that one can throw themselves into oh so willingly knowing the full consequences of forcing a fallacy to become some abstract perspective of what one can only hope to be a reality.  Selfish acts such as what one has done can only be lived with on the lesson that one learns which is even though everything even remotely relevant to a significant other can not be forced or falsely believed to go how one may want it no matter if it always didn't go as planned in the past one has to let it be.  By despertately clinging on to the positive words said by another one can be put into a state of false reassurance that gets obliterated repetitiously by the biased thoughts that are always contemplated by one daily.  It's not an obsession it's the ultimate wish of ones life that was percieved to be actually in ones grasp.  It's the unfathomable feeling that one would want to be able to share.  The ever fluctuating emotions that are always felt is something that can throw one into multiple yet diverse states of depression excitement anxiety hopefulness that are harmful to ones resolve at times.  Never has it been within ones comprehension how someone elses words could be irrelevant but someone that is special to someone can send one into a downwards spiral of psychological bewilderment by just informing one of something that has even the smallest hint of the complete opposite of what one would want.  One's resolve struggles to stand strong but one is only human and can only withstand the tempting malicious charm of giving in and.....just putting one's heart where it belongs....which means alone to one's self.  One strives to analyze situations from diverse perspectives in order to do nothing but understand it all.  One....one would want everything to just be okay just for once.  Impossible it will always be for one to have ad ay of contemplation that doesn't include the single thought of....of you.  One read "surrender was never an option when it came to you" and one procured a perspective that from this day on there will never be just one anymore no matter what the future brings one will keep you in ones heart and when one looks back and notices one meant everything one said...one disappears.....now it's just me....just me standing here standing true to everything I have ever said...Just me remembering how it feels to actually believe for an instant that you meant what you said to me.  Just me sitting here everynight that I don't talk to you making excuses to myself as to why I shouldn't cry and just give up.  Just me at this very moment writing this full of tears as silent gags of regret escape my throat in front of these people I've come to call my friends.  Just me realizing as I am writing this...nothing will ever change.  Just me having even stronger feelings for you despite the conversations I've painfully yet silently endured about mutual association and "just friends".  Just me wanting you to know that I love you and I will always try to be there for you one way or the other friends, more than friends, even if we begin to drift apart and become nothing I respect everything you said and will understand your decisions in the future...I just want to say I'm sorry and I've never felt the need to be so apologetic in my life but it's just me now helping you
worrying you
annoying you
understanding you
respecting you
loving you
wanting you
missing you...
infinitely waiting for you....


Just me fully putting 110% in this all for you...
Just me...dedicating everything I have left to you....

Published On: 10/27/2008
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My Blog: quiz results
By: Death_Angel


Free personality analysis from ColorQuiz.com.
Generated on Wed Feb 7 12:44:31 2007.

    Your Existing Situation

      Working to improve her image in the eyes of others in order to obtain their compliance and agreement with her needs and wishes.

    Your Stress Sources

      Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, she pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting her nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels she can only be at peace when she has finally reached her goal.

    Your Restrained Characteristics

      Wants to broaden her fields of activity and insists that her hopes and ideas are realistic. Distressed by the fear that she may be prevented from doing what she wants; needs both peaceful conditions and quiet reassurance to restore her confidence.

      Feels rather isolated and alone, but is too reserved to allow herself to form deep attachments. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.

      Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

       


    Your Desired Objective

      Considers the existing circumstances disagreeable and over-demanding. Refuses to allow anything to influence her point of view.

    Your Actual Problem

      The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants drives her to the exploitation of all types of experience, so that she may categorically deny that any of them has any value. This destructive denigration becomes her method of concealing hopelessness and a profound sense of futility.


Published On: 2/7/2007
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My Blog: the card i sent my ex gf check it out ppl
By: trippenfoo_2005


 
    
                       If you come across an angel
  
       Every day in the world around us, real-life angels are doing the things they do...and bringing more smiles to the world around them...
       Real-life angels build bridges instead of walls.  They don't play hide-and-seek with the truth, and they don't have hidden agendas.  They tend to be the only ones who understand what you're going through.  If they sense that you're hurting, they do whatever they can to help you.
        Real-life angels understand difficulties and always give you the benefit of the doubt.  They dont hold others up to standards they cant live by themselves.  Real-life angels are what "inner beauty" is all about.
        Real-life angels don't hold things against you; the only thing they hold... is you.  They take your hand in theirs when u could use a little reassurance.  They walk beside you when u could do with a little guidance and direction in your life.  And they support you in your attempts to do what is right.
        Real-life angels multiply your smiles and add to your integrity.  They make you feel like, "Hey, I really am somebody who matters."  Then they quietly prove to you how beautiful and true that feeling really is.
        If u come across an angel like this, you are one of the luckiest people of all.
        If some one in your life is wonderfully like an angel to you, it's important to let them know. It's the nicest compliment you could ever give... in all the days of your life and in all the years that you live.
 
                     Thank you for being
                      My real-life angel


Published On: 7/25/2006
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