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 I wish I could just break this psychological barrier... Tear it down in a blaze of beauty and trauma. Time's set still always waiting for them to make the first move, but is it true or just an act of friendliness? "Please just trust me.", the heart screams. "But what if it all comes crashing down...", the mind shoots back...
But I guess that is the definition of being human, were not perfect. Were not all civil... were not all breathtaking. Maybe that's why I've been caged for the past 18 years, I'm trying to be something that I'm not. Shielding myself from everything that could go wrong. Just play the game son...
Everything is just so high upon itself right now... I just feel... feel like:

-Changing everything
-Having everything go perfectly
-Sharing wildest dreams with a stranger and contently listening...
-Staring at the stars admiring the vast probabilities that brought this all here, and then the probabilities that brought me to that thought.
-Altering the course of someone's life in a mere instant.

My whole life it repeats over and over, what incentive can I possibly have for things to change in the future?

xoxo- brianne

Last night I was at Jiminy Peak. I went in JJ's lodge for about 20 minutes. Came out and my board was gone. I'm so pissed. Why would you steal my board when there's 100 nicer newer ones around?!

 

Anyways its a Black K2 Mini Zeppelin. It's 142cm. Has a red devil and K2 Symbol on the bottom. There's a small devil inbetween the bindings on top. There's a Duct Tape Paw Print on the tail. Has Navy Blue Ride LS Bindings with a leash attached. Serial Number 1083716.

 

I've had this board for 4 years now and its over 4 years old. I really want it back and I'm offering a possible reward for the finding/return of it.

 

On top of that my laptop crashed and now I have to use my parents computer which sucks. I cant sleep so I woke up early and here I am. I have work today and its freezing raining. Yuck.

 

It's just not my weekend T_T

 

   A friend of mine once told me, that love was a sick game that God plays on us in his free time, honestly I'm starting to believe the guy. He does not have this website, but I talk to him on another and at school. He always has been able to make me smile, but other than that a friendship has barelt even close to sparked. I used to believe in love, now it seems, that my trust in all men, has competely faded. I know I always have said those kind of things, and yes this time there is a guy that I'm waiting to make somewhat of a move to ask me out, probably will never happen, but sometimes things are worth a wait in life.

   Today, was one of those rough tear filled days, an old "friend" returned, and suddenly everything around me crashed ontop of me instead at my sides like it usually does. I broke down majorly, and if it wasn't for my best friend Amanda, I would still be depressed now. She the best friend I have ever had, I mean she cares about me, like few people really do, and she never hesitates to help me when I need her, if anyone messes with her, I don't care who that person is... I will beat the shi*t out of them.

   Along with the rough day, some tiny sparkles of happiness did somehow manage to appear, that guy and I, though unable to talk, discussed a few things this weekend, which of course involved the hard decision of actually dating.

   I'm sick of the fakiness of love, and I would do anything to actually know what it feels like again, but it seems once more it will be put on hold. At the moment, things are not great as it is, so I advise anyone who wants to mess with me, to not push me over the edge.... cause this time I doubt I will make the climb back up.

   Anyways remember I am here for everyone of you guys, even though few of you are there for me, but anyways I must be going.

Love,

Lil bre

hello to all,

so it is finally time for me to put this site to use once again. my friends and i all attend CSU but try our hardest to be true skibums when the snow starts falling, problem is we don't have a crash pad at all the slopes. so here is the offer.if anyone can provide some couch's and floor space on weekends we will bring the party. this includes booze, bud and most anything else u deem acceptable. come on we are college kids we're suppose to experiment :). we are laid back and never take anything seriously. we also love new friends to hit the slopes with, that is if u locals can keep up lol. oh and while we are skiers i promise we're the cool kind. we even ride switch, which on skis is BACKWARDS. try that u damn boarders. but seriously we love any one that loves the mtn. think we have a breck pad which will be open to those that help out.hopfullywe will find some kind hearts again this year. any questions write me back and i hope to school u up and down the slopes, but probably not in the park.

oh and i promise you'll get to see at least one yardsale, i'm trying to figure out jumps and rails. rails are harder on skis trust me

looking forward to all the powder

So its beena a while since the last update and the film is making more progress now. The last ramp that you saw our friend Rob attempt to jump off of has been reduced to a 6ft launch ramp now and new blueprints have been planned out of the runways and rollins. October 5 and 6th will be the date we start building the 8ft launch ramp and the landing banks for it. Soon after that the invites will go out and pros will be here to rip these to minis apart!

 

In the meantime though heres a little behind the scenes look at the first day of test runs of the Scoff Project. WHos knows you might even be able to see Rob crash this time....

 

One 16 year-old boy Michael, and a 16 year-old girlfriend, Sarah, fell deeply in love since the very first day they met. They both lived in California but the girl had just moved there a year ago but fell for him so fast. Michael played on her dad's football team. He was the best player on the team and her dad saw him as a son of his own. Sarah was a cheerleader on the team and had everything she ever wanted. Until one day... her life crashed. Mom: Wake up honey. Michael's downstairs waiting for you. Sarah: Oh my gosh. I woke up too late! I still need a shower and everything! Right when she said that Michael walked into her room smiling from ear to ear. Michael: No baby. You're beautiful just like that- now come on, I'm starving. Sarah: Okay.

Sarah got out of bed, put on some clothes, took his hand, and walked out the door to his car and got in. Sarah: Where are we going? Remember that I have to be home by 1. I have cheerleading practice and you have football. Michael: I know.. Then Sarah noticed that Michael was really pale-looking. Sarah: Michael are you feeling okay? You look like you're sick.. Michael: Yeah; it's just my allergies. Sarah: Are you sure? Did you go to the doctor yet? Michael: Yeah.. I went yesterday. They just said to take some allergy pills and that I'll be okay. Sarah turned to look away from Michael. She knew there was something wrong. She has allergies and she doesn't look like that.
Then he reached out and held her hand. Sarah: Michael your hands are so cold. I dont think you're okay tell me what's really wrong.. do we need to go back to the house? Michael: I promise you baby; everything is okay.. they told me to go back tomorrow but I'm not going because there's nothing wrong with me. Sarah: Michael you need to go! If they told you to then there is something wrong! Michael let go of her hand and turned back to the road and didn't talk to her the rest of the way. Sarah just looked at him. They finally pullled up to the resturaunt and ate breakfast. Michael: Did you bring your cheerleading stuff or do we have to go back to your house to get it?
Sarah: I have it.. do you really think you should go to football practice like that? Michael: Yes Sarah. I'm fine. Sarah: If you say so.. Michael: Sarah, baby, would I lie to you? Sarah: No... They got back in the car and went to the field.They got out and started practice. Sarah was practicing a new cheer, but then out of no where she heard a boy yell, "HE'S NOT MOVING SOMEONE CALL 911! HELP COACH!" Right when she heard that she turned around and saw Michael on the ground just laying there, not moving.
She ran to him but her dad pushed her back. Dad: No honey. You shouldn't be right here. Sarah started to cry. Sarah: Daddy. What happened? Is he okay? Dad: Honey. Please just go back with your coach. Sarah walked back and sat on the bench with her head in her hands while an ambulance came and took him away. She got in the car with her dad and they went to the hospital. When they got there his mom was already there and talking to the doctor. They walked over and listened... Doctor: You may want to sit down for this.Michaels Mom: Is he okay? Doctor: Ma'am.. your son has lukiemia. We can put him on treatments, but he might not make it because the cancer has already spread too much. Sarah was shocked and began to cry on here dads shoulder. Michaels Mom: Treatments? Doctor: Well the treatments would cause hair loss... but it will help slow the cancer down. Michaels Mom: But he's certain to die? Doctor: Yes.. but we have had this surgery to clear out the clogs.. but it's possible that he will not make it. Michaels Mom: I will have to talk to him about this. Can we see him now? Doctor: Yes. One at a time though. Michaels mom looked over at Sarah and hugged her tight she knew that Sarah loved him with all her heart. Michaels Mom: You go first sweetheart. Sarah: Are you sure? Michael's Mom: Yes honey. Sarah walked slowly to his room and turned the knob. She just stood there, looking at him lying there weak. He was so pale and he had tubes surrounding him. It was painful for her to look at him. Michael looked at her and weakly smiled at her.
She went over and kneeled down beside him. Michael: Did they already tell you? Sarah: Yes... Michael: I'm sorry Sarah. I didn't want you to find out like this. Sarah: It's okay; I understand Michael. Michael: Baby I love you so much.Michael reached up and slowly ran his fingers through her hair. Sarah: I love you too Michael. With all my heart.. and I will be here for you 'till the end. Michael: Im going to be okay Sarah. The nurse walked in with Michaels mom. Nurse: Its her turn now. Michael looked at Sarah. Michael: Bye baby.
Sarah: Bye. Sarah kneeled down and softly kissed his cold lips. Months went by and Michael lost his hair, but they were still deeply in love and Sarah was by him everyday. Michael was getting worse to where he couldn't even play football, and the championship game was coming up. Michael was  sitting on Sarah's porch with her and her dad. Michael: Coach.. I wanna play tomorrow. Dad: Michael I know you do.. but I can't let you do that.. you'll get hurt. Michael: No, coach. Please. This might be the last time on the field for me. I want to be able to play one more time. Dad looked at Michael and then at Sarah. Sarah nodded her head. Dad: You're a strong boy, Michael, and very brave. I think we can do this. Michael: Thank you so much coach. Sarahs dad nodded his head. Dad: So what are you two doing tonight?
Michael: I wanna show Sarah something if that's okay. Dad: Of course; you two be careful. Michael took Sarah's hand and lead her to his car. It was completely dark outside when they pulled up to the football field. Sarah: What are we doing here? Michael: Follow me. Michael grabbed a blanket and laid it down onto the field. They both laid there looking at the stars. Sarah: This is so beautiful. Michael: I do this often. I wanted to show you the place I love. Sarah: Do you remember the flowers you gave me on our very first date?
Michael: Sure I do; I gave you lillies; your favorite. Sarah: Yeah... I'll never forget that day. Michael: I want you to always remember something Sarah.
Sarah: What is it? Michael: I will always be with you.. and I will always love you.. you're my one and only.. Sarah started tearing. Sarah: I love you so much, Michael. Michael: And I also want you to be happy.. I want you to marry someone, have kids, make a family, just live a happy life for me. Sarah: No. I will never marry anyone.. im marrying you Michael Michael: Just don't forget what I told you. Michael leaned in and kissed her. She pushed him off and jumped up Sarah: You still think you can catch me? Michael: Oh yeah. I'm stronger than I look. Sarah: Then come get me. Michael stood up and chaised her around the football feild until he finally caught her. He laid on top of her and put her hands behind her back and held her there so she couldn't move. Then it started to rain and they were getting soaked but they didn't care. Michael looked deep into her eyes. Michael: Who's the weak one now huh? Sarah: Me (she giggled) Michael: Remember what you told me that night when we were at dinner? Sarah: No.. what? Michael: You have always wanted to kiss in the rain with the one you love. Sarah: Yeah? Michael: Well your wish is my comand. Michael leaned down and kissed her deeply. He pulled away. Michael: You're so beautiful. Sarah: You're such a good kisser. (she laughed.. so did he) Michael: I better get you home. They got into the car and went home. It was hard for them to sleep that night but they did.
It was finally the big day and they were all at the football field. Michael had on all his football gear, and Sarah was ready to cheer him on. The game began.
The crowd was going wild for Michael while Sarah was cheering her heart out for him. The score was 36 to 36. All they had to do was make one more point and they would win. Michael had the ball and ran with all he had to the touchdown line and threw the ball down. He had made a touch down! Everyone was cheering. They had won the game! But for Michael.. he may have lost his life. He fell to the ground trying to catch his breath. Sarah ran to him and kneeled down over him. He looked up at her gasping for breath. Everyone was heading to field. Her dad stood infront of them. Dad: Back away.. give them a moment please.. that's my daughter's love. Michael gently raised his hand and whiped her tears away. Sarah: Don't die Michael.. I need you.. I love you. Michael: I told you this was my dream to win the championship.. to be in the big game.. to die on this feild.. I made history.

Sarah leaned down and kissed him, knowing this was the last she would ever kiss him, the last time she would ever talk to him. She had so much to say but had no time to say it.Michael: I love you baby. Tell Mom I love her too.. and tell coach thank you. Sarah: I love you Michael. I love you so much.
Michael: I'll wait for you..... Michael's hand dropped and he let go. He died that night on the football feild. Sarah cried for 2 months straight. Sarah was lying on her bed when her dad walked in. Dad: Honey, it's been 2 months. Please get up. He would want you to have fun and be happy. Sarah: I know..
Dad: Guess what. Sarah: What? Dad: They are building a new stadium. Isn't that great honey? Come on, I want you to come with me before they tear the old one down. Sarah got up and went with her dad to the field. They climbed to the top of the bleachers and looked down. Sarah: It's like it was just  yesterday. He was out there throwing the football, making that touchdown.

Her dad wrapped his arms around her and she began to cry. Dad: I know baby., I know. Then Sarah noticed something on the feild. Sarah: Whats that daddy? Look. (Sarah pointed to the field) Dad: Look like some flowers are blooming. Sarah: Oh my gosh, daddy! Stop them! Don't let them tear this down! Please! Michael planted me something. Her dad ran down there and stopped them. Weeks later the flowers had bloomed. Her and her dad went to look at them. They were lillies that left a message saying, "I Love You".

If you have any heart at all and love someone this much repost this.
(also if you cried)

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
(x) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Smoked Weed
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) Drank Alcohol

Level 2
(x) Had a bf/gf
(x) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted(bad times)
( ) Been Fired

(x) Been In A Fist Fight

Level 3
(x) Snuck Out Of A Parent's House.
(x) Had Feelings For Someone Who Didn't Have Them Back
(x) Been Arrested
(x) Made Out With A Stranger
( ) Gone Out On A Blind Date

Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

Level 5
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your MYSPACE friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking

Level 6
( ) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Myspace
(x) Been Mosh Pitting

Level 7
( ) Punched a lover
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love(d) Someone Who You Can't Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel

Level
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone Puddle Jumping
(x) Played Dress Up

Level 9
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

Level 10
(x) Used A Fake / Someone Else's ID
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
(x) Killed A Snake

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Robbed Someone
(x) Been Misunderstood
( ) Pet A Deer

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

( ) Had/have braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Had deja vu
(x) Danced in the moonlight

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus

( ) Been Kissed Under A Mistletoe
(x) Watched The Sun Set With Someone You Care / Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach

Level 19
(x)Crashed A Party
(x)Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
(x) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" In Class/common room
( ) Swam With Dolphins

Level 21
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole / Freezer/Ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x)Sat on a roof top

Level 22
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 3 Hours
(x) Stayed Up All Night

Level 23
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had / Been In A Tree House
( ) Have been Scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

Level 24
(x)Seen a Ghost
( ) Have/Had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Jail/Visit

Level 25
(x) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed Into A Pool With All Your Clothes On
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(x) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

Level 26
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
(x) Smoked A Cigar (dont ask)
(x) Smoked Weed...(i dont do that anymore)
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex(in a friendly kind od way)
(x) Drank Alcohol

Level 2
(x) Had a bf/gf
(x) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted(bad times)
( ) Been Fired

( ) Been In A Fist Fight

Level 3
(x) Snuck Out Of A Parent's House.
(x) Had Feelings For Someone Who Didn't Have Them Back
(x) Been Arrested(stole)
( ) Made Out With A Stranger
( ) Gone Out On A Blind Date

Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

Level 5
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your MYSPACE friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking(I hate when that happens)

Level 6
( ) Eaten Sushi (eww)
(x) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Myspace
(x) Been Mosh Pitting

Level 7
( ) Punched a lover
(x) Taken Pain Killers(when my hair hurts)
(x) Love(d) Someone Who You Can't Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel

Level
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone Puddle Jumping
(x) Played Dress Up

Level 9
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

Level 10
(x) Used A Fake / Someone Else's ID
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
(x) Killed A Snake(it was awesome felt bad tho cuz what did it ever do to me)

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Robbed Someone
(x) Been Misunderstood(all the time)
() Pet A Deer

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended
( ) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

( ) Had/have braces
(x ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Had deja vu
(x) Danced in the moonlight(hardcore dancing that is)

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus(that f*ckface didnt write back)

(x) Been Kissed Under A Mistletoe
(x) Watched The Sun Set With Someone You Care / Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach

Level 19
(x)Crashed A Party
( )Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey (everyday ... sigh)

Level 20
(x ) Worn Pearls
(x ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x ) Screamed "Penis" In Class/common room
( ) Swam With Dolphins

Level 21
( x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole / Freezer/Ice Cube
(x ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x)Sat on a roof top

Level 22
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 3 Hours
(x) Stayed Up All Night

Level 23
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had / Been In A Tree House
(x ) Have been Scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

Level 24
( )Seen a Ghost [felt?]
(x) Have/Had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
(x ) Gone Streaking
( ) Jail/Visit

Level 25
(x ) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed Into A Pool With All Your Clothes On
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

Level 26
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video (not yet but just u guys wait)
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

Level 27
(x ) Mooned Someone
(x) Had someone Moon / Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name

Questions and lifestyle photo by “Scoffman”
Action shot by Sheyla V. 

 

 

 

 So before we get started are there any shout-outs you want to give? Definitely!!! All of my sponsors!! Jason at SCOFF skateboarding hell yea indestructible laces man!!!Mike G. at ) nice skate shoes, STRUGGLE skateboards, Lisa at Destructo & Speed Metal, Jason at Gripgum, Eric at OGIO, John at Thiesnuts hardware, Lisa at Peter Grimm, Dylan at olliepop, Scotty at Taildevil and  Isaac at Cali Boardwear. I would also like to thank my beautiful lady Sheyla in which I adore and love. She supports me 100%. And my family of course no doubt!!!

 So how did you come about to be on the Scoff team? Well I think it was an email I received from you back in the day. I believe I am one of the original riders. The concept was so rad and I had never seen anything like it. You truly have to get a pair of laces to see what I mean. It takes forever to tear through. It’s as if there’s some magic powers embodied within the laces.

 How long have you been skateboarding for? About 7 years give or take.

 

 What first got you into it?My cousin JC and some dude in high school that I used to watch skate.

 

Some local skateboarder they called “Q” that dude was so tech and was ollieing like 7 boards back in the day it was amazing to watch when I was younger.

 

 

 

 What’s your favorite skatespot? Aww man, the black box park is buttery, I like skating downtown and the manual pads at Torrey pines. I still haven’t found a spot that I truly love though or I could consider my favorite because I really am into skating new stuff all the time. I get tired of spots fast I guess. 

 

 What is it that you love most about skateboarding? The feeling you get cruising the streets. And how it takes your mind off of everything else shi*tty going on in the world.

 

 You told me before that your sort skipping from place to place right now and living out of your car sometimes. How’s that going for you, found a permanent place to stay yet? Yea actually I am back in my hometown right now been here for a little while now about a week or two id say. Things were hectic the last 4 months of my life though. Pretty much you could say I lived out of my car and at fast food for 120 days. Or cup of noodle if I got lucky and found a microwave. It was harsh I also got in two huge car wrecks during all this man I went through so much crap. My car caught on fire and I had to jump out the window when I was involved in an insane car wreck while driving on the 5 coming from . I had no car after that and resorted to public transportation in order to get to and from my job. Which meant major couch crashing and an even unhealthier diet? But you know what I learned more and got a real taste of the street life through those tough times man. And I had my skateboard the whole way through.

 

 

It feels like everything is going so fast.

And yet, everything is at a stand still.

Things keep changing, but everything's the same.

I feel trapped in this place, with no where to go.

Like everyone is moving on, but I'm stuck.

The more I crave to get out of here, the slower everything moves.

The slower the changes.

School drags by like a death sentence, only to be renewed the next day.

My home life is like living on death row.

Like I'm stuck in reverse with no where to go but down.

Down the drain of monotony and sameness.

I don't know what to do.

I know people have it worse.

But I can't help but think about myself.

Like some selfish little girl throwing a tantrum.

But never getting my way.

It's like I've hit a brick wall, and my grasp on reality is slipping away.

I find myself sitting awake, wondering what it is I have to look forward to.

I rarely come up with something.

It feel like my life has become a bad dream.

A never ending nightmare.

And I don't want to ask for help.

But I don't know what to do.

I don't know how to get back on the reality wagon.

I've hopped off too soon.

And I'm afraid I can't get back on.

 

Hear the sound
The angels come screaming
Down, your voice
I hear you've been bleeding
Make your choice
They say you've been pleading
Someone save us

Heaven help us now
Come crashing down
We'll hear the sound
As you're falling down meds

I'm at this old hotel
But can't tell if I've been breathing or sleeping
Or screaming or waiting for the man to call
And maybe all of the above
Cause mostly I've been sprawled on these cathedral steps
While spitting out the blood and screaming
Someone save us

Heaven help us now
Come crashing down
We'll hear the sound
As you're falling down

And will you pray for me?
Or make me say don't leave?
And will you lay for me?
Or make a saint of me?

Cause I'll give you all the nails you need
Cover me in gasoline
Wipe away those tears of blood again
And the punchline to the joke is asking
Someone save us

Heaven help us now
Come crashing down
We'll hear the sound
As you fall

And would you pray for me?
[You don't know a thing about my sins]
[How the misery begins]
Or make us say don't leave?
[You don't know]
[So I'm burning, I'm burning]
And will you lay for me?
[You don't know a thing about my sins]
[How the misery begins]
Or make a saint of me?
[You don't know]
[Cause I'm burning, I'm burning]

Cause I'll give you all the nails you need
[I'm burning, I'm burning again]
Cover me in gasoline again

well umm m not much of a writer but im f*cking pissed off so i will try..ahem...

 

 

OK PPL!!! i am so sick and tired of seeing Posers! Stereotypers! wannabe's! judgers! and lablers floating around, no wait not floating, getting into people faces when they do NOT want to see you! omg, get a life!

I've just been reading a bunch of rather old posts from this site (mostly central but skateboard.com is FULL of them....)

I have no idea why I do this....obsession = not!

Abstractism is the sin of the wise...or isn't it?

This weekend has been a little annoying I must confess; I tried to go sledding and bashed my tailbone into a piece of ice, which sucked....But afterwards I got to see this little kid plaster his face into a chain-link fence, which was pretty mean of me to enjoy such a vile thing but it was funny.....from a distance.

He hit the fence so hard he bounced backwards. What an idiot. He had lots of chances to bail out but waited to crash into the fence. 

What a mean thing to think.....sucker!

Alright.

Im past bored

And Im getting very madd

So I think I will write how Im feeling

Maybe I'll exhale all these thoughts.

 

Im older then I want to be

My life is zooming past me

I cant seem to grab a hold of it

Im in a speeding train

I don't know where I'm going

I think I'm going to crash

 

My life has changed

Dramiticly.

And I want it to change again.

Im not happy

With my life

Nor myself

 

I feel as though

Im missing something in my life

Something very important

Im stuck in a hole.

And theres no way to get out.

I need someone to help me.

Help me find myself

Help me get up.

Get un-stuck

 

   lets go

with bloodshot eyes, i watch you sleeping 
   the warmth i feel beside is slowly fading
would she hear me, if i called her name 
   would she hold me, if she knew my shame

theres always something different going wrong 
   the path i walk is in the wrong direction
theres always someone f*cking hanging 
   can anybody help me make things better

your tears don't fall, they crash around me 
   her conscience calls the guilty to come home
your tears don't fall, they crash around me 
   her conscience calls the guilty to come home

the moments died, i hear no screaming 
   the visions left left inside me are slowly fading
would she hear me, if i called her name 
   would she hold me, if she knew my shame

theres always something different going wrong 
   the path i walk is in the wrong direction
theres always someone f*cking hanging 
   can anybody help me make things better

your tears don't fall, they crash around me 
   her conscience calls the guilty to come home
your tears don't fall, they crash around me 
   her conscience calls the guilty to come home

this battered room i've seen before 
   the broken bones they heal no more, no more
with my last breath i'm choking 
   will this ever end, i'm hoping
my world is over one more time 

   lets go

would she hear me, if i called her name 
   would she hold me if she knew my shame

theres always something different going wrong 
   the path i walk is in the wrong direction
theres always someone f*cking hanging 
   can anybody help me make things better

your tears don't fall, they crash around me 
   her conscience calls the guilty to come home
your tears don't fall, they crash around me 
   her conscience calls the guilty to come home

Afi

Alien Ant Farm

Alkaline Trio

Allister

All-American Rejects(i know i know screw off haters)

American Hi-Fi

Anberlin

Angels and Airwaves

Armor For Sleep

Ataris, The

Atreyu

Avenged Sevenfold

 

Barenaked Ladies

Blindside

Blink 182

Bloodhound Gang

Blue October

Bowling For Soup

Box Car Racer

Brand New

Breaking Benjamin

Bush

 

Chevelle

Chronic Future

Coheed And Cambria

Collective Soul

Cranberries

Crash Test Dummies

Creed

Crossfade

D12

Dashboard Confessional

Death Cab for Cutie

Deftones

Depeche Mode

Disturbed

Dope

Drowning Pool

 

Eminem

Evanescence

Evans Blue

Eve 6

Everclear

Everlast

Exies, The

 

Fall Out Boy

Finch

Finger Eleven

Five.Bolt.Main

Flyleaf

Foo Fighters

Foreigner

Fort Minor

Foutains of Wayne

From Autumn To Ashes

From First To Last

Funeral For a Friend

Future Leaders of the World

 

God Smack

Goldfinger

Good Charlotte

Gorilaz(old stuff)

Green Day(old stuff)

Gym Class Heroes

 

Hawthorne Heights

Head Automatica

Hellogoodbye

Him

Hinder

Hoobastank

 

Jet

Jimmy Eat World

 

Killers, The

Korn

 

 

L

Linkin Park

Lit

Lost Prophets