Chase:
before you tell me to get your f*cking name off my page, just read, mmkay? You may have lied, you may have lost it or however you wish to put it. But I never did. Falling in love with you was the best thing that could have possibly happened to me. It made me re-think every little thing I've ever done wrong and regretted later. It made me look at life in a new f*cking light that I always believed to be f*cking worthless and fake. And it may have been lies for you, but from me, it all came from the f*cking heart. And nothing and no one will ever f*cking take that away from me or change that. I've never let anyone in my life so quickly. But there was something about you that I fell for. It made me crack. I had almost lost you once for not opening up. See, you changed me again, I learned to trust in you. That you weren't there to hurt me, only there to listen, love, and care for me. And you gave me friends that I'll have for f*cking ever. And for that, I thank you. Because it's true, I may never have met these great f*cking kids if it weren't for you. Now, there all a major part of my life, and losing you was the hardest thing for me because I love you so f*cking much, and if I lost them too, I'd really f*cking kill myself. Something harder than losing you, is still standing here, wishing you the best for your life, wishing happiness for you, being here if you ever need me, and being able to let you go. I'll never have you back, but I'm very ok with that. It makes me stronger, because I love you enough to give up. To just leave you alone, to be happy. And yeah, I'm struggling to leave you alone. But you know so much, and you're the only one who does. You're the only one who knows why I sleep the way I do. You're the one who understands why I hate so much, you're the only boy to listen to my heart. I love to hear you breee and laugh, and promise me forever, even if it was a lie. I love seeing your true smile, it makes me melt. You have words that can make any girl fall in love with you, I mean look at me, heh, if you didn't have those pretty f*cking words to go with your f*cking looks, I wouldn't have ever said yes. I would have walked away when I had the chance. But you know what? I don't regret any of it. And believe me when I say I don't lie to you. There's no f*cking reason to. I promise. And promises are way f*cking serious. I don't make promises I can't f*cking keep. I love you Chase, always have and always f*cking will, even if I fight with you or argue and say I f*cking hate you, don't listen, I'm only trying to make you feel bad, which never works, I don't know why I put forth that effort to try. When I promised to marry you, I meant it. Although now, on your side atleast, it's not going to happen. Everyone makes mistakes. I forgave you. For all the lies, f*cking that girl Stephanie (yeah, I found out, she told Tesla, and I asked her about it.), and for Jessika. And for everything else you may have done behind my back. You didn't f*ck up. I did. I shouldn't have ever thought that I was good enough to talk to you, I should have never made you that sign, and I defiantly should have never promised you a damn thing, let alone say yes to you. Because now, my heart is worthless, and I'm filling up with pure hate. Not just for everything I hated before, but for so much f*cking more. So whenever you're made at me, or ignoring me like you are, know how much I do love you. I have my heart written in a f*cking book to prove it. I only wish I could give it to you. And I wish you would finish the book with your side. But that's all far too much to f*cking ask from you. I know. I love you Chase Vincent Migliaccio. No matter what any f*cking bitch has to say. No matter what girl you're f*cking with, no matter how many hateful things you say to me. As I said before, nothing and no one will change my love for you. Liar, I really need you to lie some more. Because I'm losing it all. You, my friends, and now, my father is dying. I'm going to burn in hell for the shi*t I've done. But Liar, I really need you to help me. And I know you're talking shi*t about me, but liar, it's all bullshi*t to make yourself happy. I love the lies. I love you. I hope you find what it is your looking for some day, until then, i hope you make the best of this. I'm here for you. I support you 103%. I'm just a push of a button away from you. Chase, i do love you. And care for you more then anything in my life. I'll always love you. You mean more then anything in this Milkyway to me. Even if i can't have you, I want you in my life, everyday, for the rest of the short time i'll be here. I promised you forever. And forever, it will be. I'm a terrible f*cking person. There's a lot i wish i'd never done. Casue karma is really a f*cking bitch. Only you have the intellegence to understand me. That's why i love you. Your so f*cking real with EVERYONE. Even through all your lies. Even when your nothing but a f*cking fake. your the only boy i've evern fallen in love with. Please hold on to that tightly, and keep it close. Cause i will never love anyone else the way i loved you. You may feel completly different then i do, i mean, you said it already, you hate me. But i really don't f*cking care. I love you. Always have. And always will. Forever Chase Vincent Migliaccio. No matter what happens, who your with, what you say or what you do. Nothing will change that love i have for you.
Forever. Promise.
"Don't let go
You're so blind!
You can't save me this time
Hope comes from inside
And I feel so low tonight
If only you could see
The stranger next to me
You promise you promise that you're done
But I can't tell you from the drugs
I wish you could see
This face in front of me
You're sorry you swear it you're done
But I can't tell you from the drugs."
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