ive been to the bottom
ive been to the top
i have had my moments to share
my moments to celebrate
but now all i can say is
that im ashamed
im ashamed of my
dirty little secrets
my freakishly mental mind
im ashamed of everything i am
everything i was and
everything i will be
i cant say ive lied
cant say i told a secret
i cant even say how i feel
inside without everything
dying that once kept me alive
im ashamed of my life
the way i choose to live it
being ashamed of my body
brings fear to my eyes
being ashamed of thoughts wont
keep the suicide from going away
being ashamed has locked everything
inside me and it dosent leave
it bugs me to know
i cutt, i swore, i put a curse upon you
i shouldnt let it bug me
because all the things that bug me
just makes me more ashmaed of myself
im ashamed of me the filth
that i have been brought up in
im ashamed of who my parents are
i can never forgive them for the
shi*t they put me through im ashamed
because i feel into the lies, i was
blamed and they made me believe
i was a mistake and shouldnt exist
i was never supposed to be born
it would be so shameful. the torture
ive been put though the pain
that i have to deal with still
lingeres within me it can never leave
it will be with me for life
im ashamed because something
blocks me from finding my way out
im ashamed because i couldnt
find the right bath in life, im ashamed
of who i love who my friends are
all i do is hurt them, im sorry baby
i cant be with you, im sorry friends
im so distant from you
being ashamed isnt something to be proud
of for my its a nightmare that
continues when im not sleeping
being ashamed is so scary i hate it
i cant express myself, how i feel
or even what i am about im to
ashamed of letting anyone in
im so ####### ashamed that i
dont mean to talk about it
but its what i feel so i hate to
im talking about it so i shouldnt feel
so ashamed but yet hre i am
still feeling ashamed of everything my life
holds. when will this feeling of being ashamed
go away? i need someone to tell me it
has ended being left with feeling ashamed
is something you never want in you life.
freddy is my love for you something to
be ashamed of? is it so so terrible
that i love you but cant hold you in my arms?
it bugs me to shame because its all my
fault. im ashamed of everything that has
ever happened to me in life.
the shamefulness is like a tattoo
that cant leave it stays with me forever
ive been ashamed of myself for many
years. since being raped for me the
feeling of being ashamed isnt just because
of my feeling its everything, its my body,
my emoitions, my love that dosent get returned.
do you understand why im ashamed? i do
but i cant explain it just by writing
words on paper. its one thing that
consumes me. its called being ashamed
there is light that you help me see
you say that my pain is weakness
you help me though everything
you dont want me to feel ashamed
because i have you, your the love
of my life. but that feeling of
being ashamed wont go away
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