The Guy Of My Dreams...

The guy of my dreams....Everyone told me that there is no one perfect but I
 don't know if that isn't true because I think I found the perfect guy but I think I kinda messed up that life big time but I hope I didn't because I really love,loved & cared about him alot and that will never change but if me and him did break up I don't know what I am going to do without him in my life but I know I would be really lost without him in my life because when he got sent off inthe Summer I cryed everytime I heard that he played everytime we talked before that happened but now that he isn't talking to me right now I start crying on that song again everytime I hear it....I love him so much that if I ever lost him for good I would probably go crazy without him here with me.But after a while we started dating each other he wrote in his journal on gaia and it was called "The Girl Of My Dreams" and I know it was about me because I was theone he talked to that night but here is what it said The girl of my Dreams.....they sayperfect people don't exist,but that's not trure I'm in love with one.She's perfect I'd do anything for her.Sometimes I feel a certain way around her and when we talk there's a spark in my heart that ignights itself and my heart beats alittle faster I start to get nervous and she haves the voice of an angel.Every time we talk its like nothing in the world could make me feel sorrow because she's always there to cheer me up an example is least night I found out the worst news in the world.......my brother died all I could do is want to cry but she made me laugh like nothing never happened.Well I don't know what else to say about her right now but that I love her.But I knowed he wrote that about me but I know I'm not perfect like he though because I think I kinda broke his heart but if I did I didn't mean too do it I just wanted to know if he still loved and cared about me the same way or not but I so want to be in his life and I want him to always be in my life with me not no one else because I love him so much more than words can say but I really thought if he loved me like he said he did he would still be here with me instand of breaking up with me just because I was having a bad day and just because I couldn't take it no more at all and I just wanted to break my own heart the only way I knowed how too by mine,his relationship but I thought he would let me tell him why I did it but I guess he didn't care why I did it for.(you should know if I am talking about you if you really read it and remember that you wrote that on same beside here)(if you read this again I want you to know your a butthole that can go away for good).