Because of me, my best friend is gone......
Shane and I were walking around his neighborhood doing nothing really.I was in a bit of a pissy mood and didn't feel like talking.Shane asked if he could talk to me about something.
"Later."I had mumbled.
Shane just looked at the ground as we were walking.A few minutes later we were at his house.His parents were at work and wouldn't be home 'til later that night.About watching t.v. for about 30 minutes Shane asked if he could talk to me about something again.
"I don't feel like talking!Just leave me alone!"I'd yelled.
Shane was kinda the sensitive type(not gay, just sensitive) and had started crying but he didn't make any noise.So, when I turned around I was surprised to see him at the kitchen table with his head down and his body shaking.I felt horrible.I went over to him and touched his arm but he just jerked away and ran upstairs to his room.
He came back down soon though...but he was wearing long sleeves.He hated long sleeves with a passion, so it was a little odd but I didn't think anything of it.I am such a bad friend.
The next day at school he'd asked me if we could talk and I said,"Maybe later."
I couldn't find him after school so I thought that maybe he'd gone straight home.Luckily he used to keep his door unlocked so I just walked right in as if it was my own house.I called out for him, but he didn't answer.I began freaking out and ran up to his room.I almost fainted.he was on the floor dead and there was blood all over the place.He'd written on a wall with his own blood.
"I just wanted to talk to you Taylor." is what it had said.
I looked down at him and saw something in his hand.It was a note.It said,"I just wanted to talk to you to.Why wouldn't you talk to me?I was wearing longsleeves because of the razor I had been trying not to use for so long.I didn't want you to see any cuts or scars...I wanted to talk to you about my dad.He's been hurting me Taylor.Bad.He raped me.he sucked me.He made me suck him.I hate him.I wish you would've talked to me.I'll miss you Taylor.I'll miss you so much.But I have to go now....I love you.
love,
Shane Jalele Danton"
I held his pale,limp body and cried...I have never cried that hard in my life.I had lost my best friend because I was too much of a bitch to listen to his problems.His dad hurt him and I wasn't there for him.I miss him and I can never get him back.I'm a bitch.....