Love,Pain,and mom
Here she lies in a bathtub full of cold water,cold water that use to be steaming hot,but has now turned ice cold from hours of her laying in the tub crying over her lost love, her first love, her only love, that now has been pulled away from her.
She thinks to herself, "How can something I need more than anything, love more than anything, cause me to endore this much unbearable pain? How can the thing I long for and live for also be something I don't want? Cause if I didn't have this incredible love for this guy I wouldn't be feeling this incredibly awful pain. I don't want to feel this, why do I have to feel this? Why can't I just go back to being happy? Happy with the guy I'm truly in love with and that loves me just as much.
Oh Mom, why'd you have to do this? Why did you have to take him from me and cause me this pain? Why couldn't you just except that I was happy with the guy I love instead of shutting him out and making your mind up about him before you even got to know him?
Was it so hard? Was it so hard to believe that your youngest daughter had found someone that makes her happy and made her fall in love with him?
Was it so hard to think that and incredible guy had fallen for an incredible girl? Was it? Was it that hard? Cause it wasn't hard for me. So why was it so hard for you? Why, Why do you want to cause me this much pain? Why couldn't you just except it? Except that your daughter was happy and in love with someone. Someone...that she could laugh and giggle with, someone..that she could spend the rest her life with, someone..that she could stay up all night with just talking, someone...someone that made her fall in love with him and that surprisingly fell in love with her while doing it.
Heh, I remember the first time I fell in love with him. We were just sittin together one late afternoon day in may when all of a sudden this thing just hit me. A warm fuzzy feeling that started from the pit of my stomache and worked it's way through my whole body and it brought tears to my eyes, and I'm sitting there thinking, Why are my eyes watering when this is the happiest i've ever been? Then it hit me, I was in love, I was so deep in love!
I had fell in love with the greatest guy on the planet on a friggin skateboard of all things!
Oh my gosh! I love him so much! Why did you do this mom!?! Why did you do this!?! Why can't you just let me be with the guy i love!?! The guy that makes me happy! How can you do this to your daughter!?! Why can't you just let me be with my one true love? How would you of liked it if you and dad had just got together and you were happy and in love with eachother and your mom didn't give him a chance and just said all he was going to do is use you and break your heart and then she told you that you better break up with him? Huh, you wouldn't like that to well now would you of? No, I didn't think so. So why are you doing this?
Weather you like it or not your daughter's growing up and you need to deal with that and weather you ant to believe it or not her true love has made her grow into a better and stronger person. He's made me love myself mom. He showed me what love was ane I showed him. He showed me there's more to life than what it seems and I showed him. He showed me what life's all about and you know what, I showed him.
We grew together mom. We matured eachother. I know you think i'm too young to even know what love is. But, i'm so in love with this guy. We've shown eachother how to see things in a different perspective.
I know you love me mom but if you loved me you would let me figure this out on my own. I'm smart enough not to do anything I'll regret. Just please trust me.I mean if you truly loved me you would want me to be happy and not sad and I would be happier than i caould ever be with the guy i care about most. I respect how you feel about him but respect my feelings for him too. Let me be happy. Even if you think it's a misteak to let me be with him, let me learn from that misteak, if it really is one. I know what I'm doing, I know what i deserve, I deserve the best and to me he is the best. Mom i love you and just please let me be with this incredible guy that has stolen my heart."
As she climbs out of the tub she finishes her thoughts hoping that one day she can tell her mother these feelings that lurk inside her mind. Then she dries off, puts on her clothes, and goes to bed knowing that in her dreams her and her love will always be together, as she's always hoping that one day her dreams will come true, and she'll finally have that day of being happy with the man of her dreams.
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By:
emerze
4/8/2005
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