Poems

you don't wanna fuk with me, i burn churchs like a person in the 3rd degree.
with a strike of a match hit the gasoline.
sometimes, sometimes to stay alive
to witness sickness on a cloudy sky
like thread it was just gonna stitch the seams
but now my body is soaked in gasoline......

i need to find a way,
a way to see,
a way to leave.

im being held up by one weak thread
held up by one strong word that has kept me from being dead.
your everything to me.

but i need to find a way,
a way to see.
a way to leave

so pour the gasoline and strike the match
maybe when im dead, i wont be free im sure theres a catch.
it cant be this easy.


this one weak thread that is still holding me up.
this one strong word means everything to me. even if you think it isnt enough.


but you need to find a way,
a way to see
a way to leave

your everything to me.

all she wanted was a good life.
but what she got was the sharpest knife
she cut away the pain
she made it all go away.
all she wanted was to be real.
and the blade helped her to feel.
she cut away the pain
she made it all go away.
she walked in the rain
where no one could see her cry.
she cut away the pain.
wondering why?
she did this.
she brought it on herself.
now all she can do is sit here and wait.
she will write a note that will say:
the red marks are kisses from my razorblade.a

tomorrows just another day
try to tell myself im okay
why cant you stay with me?
hold me close, just lay with me?
im tired of waiting
ive waited long enough
nothing comes easy
sometimes waiting is tough
but i would wait forever for you

i tried to tell you i loved you
and gave you my heart
my soul was left open by you
for others to hurt
my broken heart was covered in sores
but now, stitched back up to the core
you just walked away from me
left to heal on my own
you made me feel so safe
but now, im so alone
when im in your arms im okay
but those memorys are gone
they just faded away
you where afraid to get hurt
but look whos hurt now
you walk away with no expression
not even a frown
now i sit here and wonder why you lied
you said you loved me
but your love for me has died

i messed up my life
and now ive messed up his
what the hell happened?
what the hell is this?
how can i make it stop?
there is no way
i need to talk to you
and make this okay
im going to see you
and tell you goodbye
i want to leave
i want to hide
things would be better without me by your side
please dont cry
please be brave
i wasnt
now im not okay
you will be fine
it will be allright
now i wont be here for us to fight

only when i look into your eyes
is when i truly feel alive.
listeing to your voice
and hearing you breath
i miss you
and wish you didnt have to leave.
my heart stops beating
i cant help but stop breathing.
every minute im with you
its like the world has stopped and where the only two.

i hope this feeling lasts.

these scars are made with hope and tears
with blood that washes away our hate and fears
made by a razorblade or kitchen knife
or maybe a gun to take your life
from all the pain you've caused
i just want my life on pause
but no matter how hard it gets
holding on is the greatest gift
these scars you can cover up
but will allways be there as a reminder that they never cared.

this is all to much i cant hold it in.
i fight and fight but you allways win.
i cant take it
i hold it in as much as i can.
but it doesnt work. i need a helping hand.
you say your there for me, but allways hide when im begging please.
please stop.
please go away.
please understand.
just help me today.
why you allways intigate and hipocrite im not sure.
you say you'll help like your the f*cking cure.

i miss you so much
i cant even begin to explain
i need you so bad
i dont know if i can last another day
i wish we where together for always and forever
missing you is hard
but ive lasted this far
just a while longer and we'll be together
for always and forever.