i am telling this story the best i can so bare iwht me ok many repeats and jumpin all of the place.
well today started teh same as all the other but in 4th hour i all of a suddne felt a very sharp pain in my chest and so i put my hand over my chest and my body jsut froze i couldnt move anything i couldnt breathe even so i almsot fell out of my chair so then i got up and got a pass to the nurse so on the way to the nurse i started breathing very heavy like harder then a football player sprinting for 5 mins strait yeah that bad so on the way to the office i was hoofing and puffing just trying to breathe and then my legs and arms started to tingle and i couldnt feel them so i got to the nurses office and i sat down and keept breathing heavy i saw emily there so she asked me if i was ok because i looked like death and i go here i took her hand and put it on my heart and she took her hand away fast and said go in there now so i did i sat down and the nurse said excuse me let me finish i was like ok but stumbling wiht words and sentences. she tooke my heart stuff and junk and i slowed down on breathing cus i sat down so then she called my parents and stuff after that i went to my moms workto stay until my dad got home so i wasnt home alone.
so now i am driving to my moms work having a cig trying to calm my nerves it worked a lil but anyways i am driving and i am shacking and i cant feel my arms or my legs so it wasnt to fun then i get there i walk in and sit down my mom is like whoa how u doin and i thought i said i am not doin to good but she said i said i do it to the no better but in all one word. so her coworker says i dont think u should wait for the appt u set up at 145 so my mom called the doctor and asked what to do they said get to the ER right now. while she was on the fone my legs went numb and i couldnt stand or feel anything and my hands have been frozing in a spot so i couldnt move my fingers cus of my muscles tensing my breatheing slowed a lil but then when my mom went to get her keys i almost passed out then me and my mom walked to her car and i am here breathing like i have never seen air before and my legs and arms are jello and my hands are frozen in teh postin of my first 2 fingers strait out and my pinky pulled back and bent all the way over sand the rign finger is poking straight out away from the the rest of them.
so me and mom are in the car she tries talkin to me i keep mumbling and breathing like no otehr. so we get to the ER and my mom says ok we are here get out but nice and all but i couldnt move my fingers. so my mom takes me in to the er and then i get wheeled into a room and they hook me up to machines left and right. i am breathing so bad now that my body is shacking like a bobble head jsut my hole body so tehy lay me down on the bed and told me to relax i couldnt i layed down then they plugged me in to those machines and one is tell my heart rate and it keeps beeping every time it beeped he told me to plz control my breathing and relax btu i couldnt he said it is very import that i slow my breathing so he left and a guy came in and got blood and then my mom was by my side and she said she loved me and i did my best to say i love u to then she told me to slow my breatheing so i said i cant she is like i am holding ur hand i said i cant feel it and then she said i will keep holding it until u can as soon as she said that i closed my eyes and thoguth of the ppl that mke me happy like nate and jenne and the guys and lindsey my parents and all of those ppl i love and then after about 45 mins i could feel my moms hand and i could feel my arms and legs again i started to relax and be alright.
so the main thing is that i almost died cus my heart is bad but i didnt
the whole time i was shaking and frozing with my hands cant move and breathing like a ceiling fan this was not fun i am very scarred i still am
i can not have any caffine or sugar or anything like that for a long time
that was a very long story experince made short so sorry about be so confusing and weird btu hey thats the story
the moral is that life can be taken away from anyone of us at anytime. from this experience i came up with the moral that live like its ur last day cus u never know when it could end, in ur sleep , in the car, or even in 4th hour with all ur friends u care about that u dont wnat to see like that
it was a anxisity attack i undertands the breathing and muscle stuff what from that but my heart thing cause the anxisity attack so they dont know what the heart thing is. btu it sucks its not the first time but not this bad if u dont belive me ask courtny janik she has seen my heart things ask matt arneson he has see me also
dont feel sorry for me jsut show that u care and that u will be there for me when i need u when i am scarred such as a fone call away or a msg away i dont feel safe by my self plz help me out
