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Wednesday, September 10, 2008

HELLO...
long time know type....
well let me try to up date everyone...

my life is sorta getting better i got out of rehab on,,,,
july 11th 2008
and i went camping for the first time in my life...

yeah i know my interest says camping...
but i have only stayed in a cabin...
the kind where you pitch a tent and roast marshmellows is amazing.

it was great until a fight broke out with these people a little ways away..
hello... i have said this a million times... [if you know me]
FIGHTING IS RETARDED!!!!

It just shows how stupid you really are
i don't know i guess that's my own oppioion thou..
i won't even let my boyfriend fight...

ok.... anyways i think i covered that fighting sucks....
i fell head over heels for my boyfriend...
he is one of a kind...

i know that there is better looking guys out there
but i love this guy....
he treats me like i am a human...
not like i am sappose to clean up after them...

he makes me happy all the time...
he makes my heart skip a beat and my insides melt.
i feel amazing like he is my natural high

i am not sure if anyone knows what i am talking about but
if you do... more power too you...
love is a thing deffinatly worth going after.

i encourage anyone to fall in love...
sorry so cheezy but my label has changed i guess.
to a hippy which is cool because i
LOVE hippies they are my heros...

and no it's not the drugs... i don't use anymore
its because they are so fricken free...
i love freedom..
don't you?

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Published by racegirl_dragracer: 7:59 PM

3/24/08

Monday, March 24, 2008

hey again...

you guys know how i have that saying...*CrAcKs in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how STRONG you are.*... well that is extremly true.

me and ernie broke up... i feel lost.... it's weird

i know i pushed him away cuz i was ALWAYS getting him into trouble...

or i would get into trouble with the law and some how he got draged into it.

it's not fair.

i wish i could rewind time.... and try to fix things

part of me wants to make him jeleous. but i'm not going to sink to that level.

i hate ~~crazy~~ physcho ex-girlfriends that f*ck up the guys car....

or try to get him jumped. it's just retarded...

more reason for him to leave your ass.

i am down in sioux falls at the time of writing this...

i am going to treatment/rehab tommorrow.

shi*t i cant wait for this to be over.

my sister had a baby... and that's who we are staying with...

anyways i'm taking care of the baby...

honestly...

i enjoy it.

well until i'm on again... which won't be til like june!

i miss you all! be good... don't end up like me! hehehe

love always

max

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Published by racegirl_dragracer: 11:22 AM

hey.....
..it's me..
~~my day is great~~
my day is shi*tty.
why?
well another suicide...
this time a guy hung himself from a soccor post goalie thingy...
my friend's ex- boyfriend was BEST friends with him.
everyone's getting into a fight over how he died
which is bullshi*t. WHAT THE HELL DOES IT MATTER?! HE'S f*ckING DEAD...
(you cant bring him back)
some people say his hands were tied behind his back...
my best friend knows different
she seen him this morning
a blue bag with a rope hanging off a goal
him and his girlfriend got into a fight...
he didn't think there was any hope.
i could cry.
i knew him just alittle, but i was there once too!
it's f*cked up.
i'm worried about her.
we were talking about it and she said i might lose her to suicide too.
i FLIPPED OUT

So my question to everyone who reads my profile... what would you do?

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Published by racegirl_dragracer: 9:42 AM
Updated On: 1/11/2008 at 10:47 AM

sum pics.

Monday, November 05, 2007

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Published by racegirl_dragracer: 11:35 AM
Updated On: 11/13/2007 at 12:41 PM

.Poems.

Monday, November 05, 2007

When tomorrow starts without me

When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,
and each time you think of me I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready in heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye,
for all life, I'd always thought I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for and so much yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, I thought, just for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things that I'd miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me, from His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity and all I've promised you".
Today for life on earth is past but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last,
and since each day's the same day, there's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful, so trusting, and so true.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.
So won't you take my hand and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart,
for every time you think of me, I'm right here in your heart.

-David M. Romano

This poem means alot to me. We read it at my uncles funeral. it was sad. well i read it. I believe that this is a great reminder for me that he is always in my heart.

Rest In Peace
William "bill" Hawn

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Published by racegirl_dragracer: 10:43 AM
Updated On: 11/7/2007 at 2:03 PM