ONLY 2 1/2 MORE DAYS OF SKOOL!!! TOMOROW I HAVE TO TAKE MY ALGEBRA AND FITNESS FINAL, THEN THURDAY I HAVE TO TAKE MY SCIENCE AND HISTORY FINAL, AND THEN ON FRIDAY WE'RE ONLY THEIR FOR A HALF DAY AND I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE ANY FINALS I JUST GET TO HANG OUT IN MY SPANISH AND ALGEBRA CLASS!!!!! f*ck YEAH! ALMOST NOT A FRESHMAN NO MORE!!! WOOHOOA!!!

Yesturday was.....strange.......I went over to some chick's house that i don't really know, and hung out there and had pizza, and helped  them fix a door her step bro  broke......it was strange....surprisingly she doesn't live that far from me. And KC attacked me on....i think it was wednesday.......now i have a huge ass hickie on my neck, and my mom  thinks it's a  bug bite, and i have to go to my dads house this weekend, and he'll know for sure...so i'm screwed, and i'm supposed to be hangin out with Keola this weekend......but  he's in Boise, and i doubt my dad's gunna take me there....so life sux......and i'm bored outta my mind, cuz i don't have school today.

yesturday my sis's x bf zack came over.......he says he "forgot his wallet" in my sis's car.....i hate that basturd with a f*cking bloody passion! he ruined my sister's life, and everything he does wrong, he always manages to drag my sister down with him. so when he showed up, (he knows i hate him) i f*cking kicked his ass!!!!! he knows  better to come here, after evreything he's done to my sis, n to me.......i hope he f*cking dies!!! i told him that if i catch him again one more time befor the cops do (cuz the cops are looking for him) he's gunna be 6 feet under. i seriously wanna slit his throat and drink his blood! he's better off dead!!!!!

ok, the last two days have sucked ass! Saturday i finally got to go to the mall with Mikey, Nate, Ashely, and Rusty, and sum weird ass mother f*cker that worked at Specers kept staring at my ass. then when Ashely was finally allowed to go home, her car f*cking stoped at the end of my street, and she couldn't get it to f*cking start again, and she started bawling her eyes out, when i finally got to my phone she called, and i ran down there, but i couldn't tell what was wrong, so she called her dad before i got there and had him come, right when i got to her car, she jumped out and started f*cking crying. and before i left i told my mom that i was goin to help her, and all she said was "so?" so i just left. Then when we finally got  her car working, she was too scared to drive it home, then yesturday i was f*cking sick all day, i slept on and off for 19 hours, and i puked 12 times. so yea....life f*cking sux ass!!!!

Why is it this nightmare keeps haunting me? Leaving me alone and crying searching for the blade that will end this sad story. I'm worthless and im always begging for all the pain to go away. Im sorry for all the pain im causing but i cant end my life without the love of this blade that causes me to bleed crimson red from my wrist that has scars from head to toe. Why cant it just end tonight leaving me n the floor with blood everywhere slowly fading from you? It doesnt look like you care that my blood is draining out and im dieing wishing you would miss me and still love me but is this all a nightmare or is it real?