Short Stories

im sick of love... there will never be a right person for me... to every broken heart in here.. love is once apon of time...forget the sorrow... but i say to never fall inlove again.. i wonder if you are listing to me, i wonder if you still miss me, cuz i still miss you and i love you.. TO NEVER FALL IN LOVE AGAIN...... who i trust? i wonder... but i really trusted you with all my heart...i remember the happy times we spend together...i cant forget our first kiss nor last kiss... cant forget when we had sex together and i was pregnant but i lost it.. i know we were so exicted for it, but now it is in the past... you are a HEART BREAKER!!!.. but im sooo addicted to you... can forget when we met and you asked me out... cant forget we use to go out and go for a ride... i will never forget you... i know you asked me out again, but i have to think about it... but yeah i still love you... I KNOW YOU WANT ME TO STOP CUTTING, BUT WITH THIS PAIN I HAVE OF YOU , I CANT STOP CUTTING... i know you will do anything to have me save...like putting me in a facility, which i wont go.... but you have to understand me that you have to listen to me and try to give me some advice..i know you want me save and secure... so i promise you instead of cutting i will skate and i hope someday i will get sponsored again.. thats a promise i wont break... trust me

my life sucks soo bad, because soo many bad memories coming back.. first at age 14 i was raped and then at age 17 again by the same guy...the other things are my mom telling me that if i want to go back to the hospital for cutting.. i couldnt stand being in a facility that you cant smoke a ciggarettes or skate... you just do goals, eat,sleep, go to your room and clean up and at night you read your goals to the whole group...which suxs..anyways i hate my family for putting me in the hospital for being suicidal and i was about to die on june 9,2007 which i O.D. on seroquel of 800mg which i took 14 pills of those, 10 of vicodin and 10 of sleeping pills..and i was pretty much soo sleepy and yeah, i will never forget that moment... even though im still cutting and thinking of killing myself because of my illness of Schiphrenia with phychotic features and i totally have seizures too... anyways if you people wanna give me advice please hit me up sometime... and also check out my poems too if you have any time..lol...