"Be My Escape"
I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.
I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
So were You
i put one of these things in a really old entry.. im bored so i shall update it name – Julian age - 17 sex - F height - 5'8 location –Chattanooga hair color – blonde eye color - greensexual preference – males. what brand of deodorant do you use - BAN.. the sweet smell ::drools:: do you like pickles – hell no do you watch porn – ShHDo you have any pets –Yeswhat do you want to do with your life- help f*cked up teensever been butt naked bangin' on the bathroom floor – no cant say that i havedo you think foreign accents are sexy – mMm only irish and englishdo you like hot dogs – sometimesmost attractive person you know - Jamespiercings = 7tattoos = I wishshoe size = 9favorite color = GREENyou have a bf or gf = yeshyou wish you could live somewhere else = Yupyou think about suicide = sometimes.when im sad.others find you attractive = .who knowsyou do drugs = Yesyou smoke = Potyou like roller coasters = .Yesyou write in cursive or print = bothfor or against....long distance relationships = againstusing someone = .Agaisntsuicide = againstkilling people = againstdoing drugs = its up to the person...premarital sex = for if its the right persondo you....like the taste of blood = cant say that i dobelieve in love = yesbelieve in soul mates = sorta.. maybe.. kinda.. ok yes ima big ol mush for the soulmate stuffbelieve in love at first sight = Nobelieve in god = sorta...... still finding outever cried over a girl = noever lied to someone = Yesever been arrested = eh only a few times ever been in a fist fight = yesnumber...of times I have been in love? = 1of times I have had my heart broken? = 2of hearts I have broken? = 2::What's the best gift you've ever received? duno havent received yet::What's the best concert you've ever attended? Atyreu3::If you had to give up either music or sex for the rest of your life, which would you pick?:: music::What's your favorite bad-for-you food?:: junk food::If you could lose (or get back to re-lose) your virginity to any person living or dead, who would it be?:: Whats the Question again?::Are you a dog person or a cat person?:: Kitties! YAY::Have you ever made out with more than one person in the same 24 hour period?:: yes::Favorite curse word?: f*ck.. the usual::Have you ever had a romantic/sexual encounter with a rock star?:: Not yet::What's the craziest/stupidest thing you've ever done while drunk?attempted to ski on my kitchen floor..yea wasnt my brightest moment::What current trend do you think is ridiculous and wish would go away immediately?:: oh god too many to mentionHAVE YOU EVER...[Said "I love you" and meant it?] Yes[Been to New York?] yes[Been to Florida?] yes[California?] yes[Hawaii?] yes[Mexico?] Nope[China? Japan?] .Nope[Canada?] Uh…Yeah[Danced naked?] Yea[Spain?] yesEITHER OR...[Apples or bananas?] b-a-n-a-n-a-s[Red or blue?] blue no no red.. ahh i duno..green![Backstreet Boys or N Sync?] im not gona lie.. i heart BSB[WalMart or Target?] target[Math or English?] Math[High school or college?] College...
I sing. I run. I laugh. I play. I love. I hate. I try. I succeed. I fail. I tire. I sleep. I eat. I cry. I smile. I remember. I forget. I sneeze. I cough. I look. I see. I hear. I feel. I breathe. I think. I act. I follow. I lead. I choke. I quit. I win. I lose. I live.I pass. I honor.I lesson. I underestimate my possibillties like a real person. And like a real person, i eventually die.
The majority of us lead quiet, unheralded lives as we pass through this world. There will most likely be no ticker-tape parades for us, no monuments created in our honor.
But that does not lessen our possible impact, for there are scores of people waiting for someone just like us to come along; people who will appreciate our compassion, our unique talents. Someone who will live a happier life merely because we took the time to share what we had to give.
Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have a potential to turn a life around. It's overwhelming to consider the continuous opportunities there are to make our love felt.
IM MOVING TO FLORIDA THIS SATURDAY WITH MY DAD AND STEPMOM BECAUSE MY MOM IS A PHYSCO AND SHE SAID SHE WANTED ME OUT OF HER HOUSE!!!
She called last night still waiting for a reply.
This static contact is pulling us apart.
Please hang on tight,
I'll see you through the night.
You have me still because I'm breathing,
Although it has slowed down.
Please don't cry because I'm leaving.
I hope I see you soon.
Exchange the sunshine for brown eyes and dark skies,
Replace this dull life with you.
I Know it's tomorrow,
She's waiting for something to feel alive.
You know me too well,
She's sorry and I can tell.
Scene missing, fade to black.
You're acting all this out again,
Just wake me when it's over,
When the curtains raise,
It's time to move on.
Exit now, credits rolling,
The girl who stole my heart.
The one that got away...
You know me too well,
She's sorry, I can tell.
Scene missing, fade to black.
You're acting all this out (again, again!)
You have me still because I'm breathing,
Although it has slowed down.
Please don't cry because I'm leaving.
I hope I see you soon.
You know me too well,
She's sorry and I can tell.
Scene missing, fade to black (fade to black!)
You're acting all this out again.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Happy Birthday To Me. Happy Birthday To Me. Happy Birthday Dear Me.
Tommorow.
Lords Of Dogtown.
June 3,2005
Check it Sucka.
Im SO excited.
I Cant Waitttt!
If It Makes You Happy, Then Why The Hell Are You So Sad?
NiCk iS mY mAn hOe.
♥
You have me still because I'm breathing,
Although it has slowed down.
Please don't cry because I'm leaving.
I hope I see you soon.
You know me too well,
He's sorry and I can tell.
Scene missing, fade to black.
You're acting all this out again
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Finished with my woman 'cause she couldn't help me with my mind
people think I'm insane because I am frowning all the time
All day long I think of things but nothing seems to satisfy
Think I'll lose my mind if I don't find something to pacify
Can you help me occupy my brain?
Oh yeah
I need someone to show me the things in life that I can't find
I can't see the things that make true happiness, I must be blind
Make a joke and I will sigh and you will laugh and I will cry
Happiness I cannot feel and love to me is so unreal
And so as you hear these words telling you now of my state
I tell you to enjoy life I wish I could but it's too late
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
I'm a Burnt Human Being. Im Red..and in PAIN!!!!
I ♥ You Ahegla!
I ♥ YOu To Billy...i think because your kinda a jerk.
CHECK YOUR INTELLIGENT HERE:http://members.home.nl/saen/Special/Zoeken.swf
Check It Sucka.
www.skaterscafe.com
I Didnt Go To School.Because Im Cool Like That. xXx.
Ha..
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Ugh.Im SO not Going to School Tommorow.BEcause Im Cool Like That.
Danny Is a Cool Kid.AND Hes Awesome. *HUGS DANNY!!!*
]Attention Attention! Flavor Of The Week-Billy!
YES! I He Finally Let Me Wear His Rolex!Haha. Billy Kissed Me AND he put his arm around me!woOt.Who's Tha Woman.I AM I AM!
He Left, Then He Said "Give Me a Hug" So, I Did.
]Kids, Its Very Fun To Act Like You Have Mental Disorders, Like Terrets,and Down Syndrom. Just A Few Easy Steps,
1.Cover Your Head and Cuss Very Loudly, Then Explain That Your Sorry For Messing Up The Fat Kids Oral Book Report.
2.Shake Your Hands And Rock Back and Forth.
3. Say Words Like "jkhdyfwehdjcdgf", That People Cannot Aknowledge.
xXx I'm a Skate Kid.xXx
hahahaha.Fun Stuff,
I Have a Boo-Boo, On My Knee, Because I Fell Down, Doing 180 Out Of a Box.
Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.
And I'm sick of my sickness
Don't touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
And everything, everything's my fault.
Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop.(whoa)
Got medication, a new addiction,
f*cken thanks a lot.
Had to relapse, I'm outta rehab,
It ruined everything.(whoa)
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, and everything's my fault.
And I'm a death threat haven't slept yet,
Baby wide awake at dawn.
Helmet bad boy, tell the tabloids,
everything's my fault.
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa Whoa everything's my fault,
everything's my fault.
I went to heaven, couldn't get it,
For what I had done.
I said forsake me, you said you're crazy
you were too much fun.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, everything's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me, (everything's my fault)
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Everything's my fault
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
I'd Rather Die Than See You Smile.
Oh Yeah.♥ Chris (IndePendenTsk8er) iS seXy!!woOt.Hes a baBe.woOt.I stOle hiM.yOu didNt.
HaHa.
yOu lOsEr.
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