I'm not a good person.

Get that image out of your head.

You need explainations for my actions?

Well, good, so do I.

Try to do what's right.

Hate me.

I'm begging you.

It would make everything easier.

But, maybe not for you.

I'm selfish. You just can't see it yet.

I'm sorry you had to meet me.

I don't want to hurt you.

But I'll hurt you anyways.

 

So take heart, sweetheart, or I'll take it from you.

 

I'm heaven sent.
Don't you dare forget.
I am all you've ever wanted.
What all the other boys all promised.
Sorry I told.
I just needed you to know.
I think in decimals and dollars.
I am the cause to all your problems.
Shelter from cold.
We are never alone.
Coordinate brain and mouth.
Then ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out.
I wish I knew.

I hope this song starts a craze.
The kind of song that ignites the airwaves.
The kind of song that makes people glad to be where they are
With whoever they're there with.
This is war.
Every line is about who I don't wanna write about anymore.
Hope you come down with something they can't diagnose,
Don't have the cure for.
Holding on to your grudge.
Oh, it's so hard to have someone to love.
And keeping quiet is hard.
`Cause you can't keep a secret if it never was a secret to start.
At least pretend you didn't wanna get caught.

We're concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, now throwing the fight.
I just wanna believe

...in us.

Oh, we're so controversial.
We are entirely smooth.
We admit to the truth.
We are the best at what we do.
And these are the words you wish you wrote down.
This is the way you wish your voice sounds,
Handsome and smart.
Oh, my tongue's the only muscle on my body that works harder than my heart.
And it's all from watching TV.
And from speedin' up my breathing.
Wouldn't stop if I could.
Oh, it hurts to be this good.
You're holding on to your grudge.
Oh, it hurts to always have to be
Honest with the one that you love.
Oh, so let it go.

We're concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, now throwing the fights.
I just wanna believe.
We're concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, now throwing the fight.
I just wanna believe
...in us.

This is intolerable.

This is the greatest only we can bestow.
This is the price you pay for loss of control.
This is the break in the bend.
This is the closest of calls.
This is the reason you're alone.
This is the rise and the fall.

We're concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, now throwing the fight.
I just wanna believe.

We're concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, now throwing the fight.
I just wanna believe

...in us
[Okay, I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't - Brand New]

I don't know what to do.

Things are getting confusing.

 

I'm selfish.

Hate me for it.

It just makes things easier.

 

Well when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

When after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?

Well come one, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you like I loved you yesterday"?

I don't love you like I loved you yesterday

I don't love you like I loved you yesterday
[I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance]

Your ignorance will be your downfall.

You don't know everything.

I'm begging you... don't act like you do.

 

 

Is the can half diseased or is the disease half canned?
And is the man half machine or is machine half man?
I'm unretrofied for you.
Is the can half diseased or is the disease half canned?
Or is the man half machine or the machine half man?
I'm unretrofied for you, so come on, so come on.

I'll just fake it in the end,
Just save it for a new song and leave dead in the end.
Time is wasted in the end,
Wood paneled wagon carpool dragons killing me again.

Now they're looting our holes until there is nothing left,
Calloused intentions it seems cowards invention at best,
I'm unretrofied for you.
Now they're looting our holes until there is nothing left,
Calloused intentions it seems cowards invention at best,
I'm unretrofied for you, so come on, so come on.

I'll just fake it in the end,
Just save it for a new song and leave dead in the end.
Time is wasted in the end,
Wood paneled wagon carpool dragons killing me again - we're all dead.

Jesus can't play the music 'cause he's nailed to the cross,
And over gnawed off feet I find that I can't walk,
I can't walk,
I can't even walk.

I'll just fake it in the end,
Just save it for a new song and leave dead in the end.
Time is wasted in the end,
Wood paneled wagon carpool dragons killing me again.

I'll just fake it in the end,
Just save it for a new song and leave dead in the end.
Time is wasted in the end,
Wood paneled wagon carpool dragons killing me again - we're all dead.
[Unretrofied - The Dillinger Escape Plan]

Optimism isn't really my strong suit.

So, why do I feel so suddenly...

Okay.

Maybe not about my current situation.

But about what's going to happen in the future.

Maybe it's just my mood right now.

I don't know.

I guess I'm just...content.

Content with the people I surround myself with.

They're the reason I haven't gone crazy.

I love you all. :]

 

Hey, girl, you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with makeup in the mirror
tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever, you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say you're right again,
say you're right again
heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

Face down in the dirt, she said,
"This doesn't hurt", she said,
"I finally had enough."

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
it's coming round again.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

Face down in the dirt, she said,
"This doesn't hurt", she said,
"I finally had enough."
[Face Down - the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus]

Being sick was what I needed.

As strange as it sounds.

I just needed some time off.

Hopefully one day is all I need, though.

:]

 

Anyways.

I'm noticing mixed signals from certain people.

Don't say you want to be my friend...

Then spread some bullshi*t lie about me.

You think I won't find out?

Guess what...

So, don't think I'll take anyone's shi*t lying down.

'Cause I won't.

Don't think I need anyone.

I have everyone I 'need' already.

That doesn't necessarily mean you.

 

Your skin attached this fragile cliche
Of my broken heart attack
You should swallow your teeth and hang out
Stay for a while
If your heart's still beating it must be the blood
If your lungs are still working it must be the mud
If its still light out than a kick in the ribs
today's worth living

I don't see anything now
So just say what you wanna say
It's kind of funny how I'm not listening anyway

Lights out, I can't stand to hear you scream
While we were making love I was fast asleep
and the night sky better give something up (give something up)

I don't see anything now
So just say what you wanna say
It's kind of funny how I'm not listening anyways

Lights out, lights out, lights out, lights out...
Lights out! I can't stand to hear you scream
While we were making love I was fast asleep
If your heart's still beating it must be the blood
If your lungs are still working it must be the mud
If its still light out than a kick in the ribs
And today's worth living, it probably is

I don't see anything now
So just say what you wanna say
It's kind of funny how I'm not listening anyway

I'm not listening anyway
I'm not listening anyway
I'm not listening

Listening, I'm not listening
I'm not listening
I'm not listening
I'm not listening
[Listening - the Used]

I don't understand why I've been in such a bad mood lately.

I've just been snapping on everyone, except Danielle and/or Kelly.

I'm just fed up with the way life is, I suppose.

So overrated and dramatic.

Maybe it's due to all of the fights I keep having with my family.

Who knows.

But, I'm sorry if I've been a bitch lately.

=\

I'm trying to get in highter spirits.

Just give it time.

It's nothing personal.

 

[Lunacy Fringe - the Used]

Hello, boys and girls.

It's story time.

For the record;

Everyone has "problems."

I do. You do. Your neighbor does. Your mother does. Everyone.

So, I do not understand why people insist on throwing their problems in people's faces.

You are not the ONLY person to ever be in the least bit "depressed."

Or have problems at home.

Believe me.

I guarantee at least ONE person has had a similar problem.

See, usually, when someone has a problem, they keep it to themselves.

Try not to cause a scene.

But, there's always that occasional person that feels the need to be like 'OH PITY ME!'

That's the difference between having a real problem;

and inventing one to get attention.

I mean, it's always nice to get attention.

But does anyone really think that someone acting like they have a million things wrong with them makes them any more likable?

'Cause it doesn't.

But I digress.

I'm not pointing fingers at anyone.

It's just a general observation.

That I decided I've become far too annoyed with.

That's all for today.

 

[Martyr - Depeche Mode]

This is just getting amusing.

Doesn't anyone think I have bigger issues to think about?

Because, I do.

If you don't, that's not my problem.

 

I pretty much don't give a shi*t about anyone anymore, except a few select people.

You're probably not one of them.

Tough break. :]